Cycle (2007 edited Feb. 28, 2009)

Never ceasing, never starting, never

Turning, relentlessly weak.

Immature, but wise leading

leading...then nothing. Increasing

Increasing...but no progress.

The lifeless struggle against all hope

finds no rest in itself till it finds

A dead end – peace.

Truth (2007, edited Feb. 28, 2009)

My mind rolls over ideas and speculations

That ponder the Meaning over and over again

In the depths of my thoughts,

of this...thing.

Somehow it comes to me like a sudden shower of Rain,

Like a blast in my face it screams in my ear with Infinite sound.

Though no on else hears it,

I know of its Existence

As surely as the Wind blows and the Sun rises,

As the falling leaves on an Autumn's day, as surely as

The deadened grass to be buried in the Winter's snow,

As the blossoms of abundance in Spring, as surely as a hot Summer's day:

Something so simple and yet so profound,

Finds its place in the unearthed, unbound:

Its unexplainable and unfathomable characteristics

Gnaw at my sides to seek more, to find more statistics.

After one dose I'm addicted to its releasing powers

And yet, everyday I try to escape from its endower

But I find myself crawling back like an infant to its mother –

It fuels my laughter, and pulls at my tears;

It releases the rawest state of my being, of fears.

Buried somewhere within the garden of the unknown

It has, it is, and

It will Be.

Recourse (Feb. 22, 2009)

Misguidance of appearance now, reflect

Not what of I in early stage in years,

But of innocence, naive manifests -

To all ears and eyes, and mouth laid rest

On this head, to grab a morsel of

Regret. As seasons fleeting notes progress,

A change in self by powers most divine

and only so in yearn for Him Sublime.

Yet I know not what I am again

as quiet, breezy disposition brings;

Crept on me so by heavy weighed wand'rings.

But tangled, unsolved mystery unfolds,

Gives clarity, up for air from underwater,

Light shines in, and puts me in the latter.

Refurbished (Feb. 25, 2009)

Re-occurring patterns tossing and turning and never-ending,

Advancing, growing, breathing.

Repeating aggression, enabled intention,

Vomited Truth obsession.

Eternal inquisition requiring only self-absorption,

Rejected emotion, retired progression.

Twirling and spiraling, into recession;

only to discover more repetition.

Advancing, demanding, going...gone...

Small piece of Memory rekindling, remembering,

Re-lit, un-trembling, relentless unwavering;

upward, outward, toward

The Air, the Clouds; the Moon, the Sky –

Evolution of the Mind, invention unbind

Recalling, removing, unwrapped and behooving,

Finally now reproving, approving

Advancing and growing, repeated salvation,

Enabled allegation, consumed Truth retaliation.

Eternal subscription requiring only submission,

Accepted oblation, rehired ambition.

Rising, soaring into perpetuity,

only to discover more gratuity:

The former fatuity.

Lifted, Carried, Embraced,

Gifted, Acquitted, Admitted...

Eternally His.